Candy Darling's diary is a guidebook in misery
Was my guidebook for so many years
If you don't know who Candy Darling was, she was a transgender off off off Broadway actress who acted in Andy Warhol films and was member of a subset of his "Superstars" along with Holly Woodlawn and Jackie Curtis. She wasn't a "drag queen" ( according to Mary Harron, who wrote this introduction, which I find odd, I didn't think she would be so dismissive) and Candy would not be considered a "drag queen" today, the liberal left would go into hysterics if you called her that
Although I am not transgender, I felt pretty hopeless that I would ever find a romantic partner to accompany me through life, and that I would be denied other things as well, that I cannot relate to you right now
Let's just say life was one long miserable slog through hydrogenated grease mud
The days were long and lonesome and a total waste of my twenties and thirties, and the same pain and longing seemed to be evidenced by Darling in her diary, so it was a comfort to me
Here was the recorded testament of a being for whom doom hovered over everywhere and everything and it is haunting
A lifetime of longing for people to understand her, to not judge her harshly, to allow her to have the things she wanted
But her life was a haunted ADVENTURE, and ultimately, she got everything that she wanted. It's a similar case of burn out to Ian Curtis ( of Joy Division ): you get everything you actually want, and then you know you're done
And at the same time, you were sort of luxuriating in the despair
i can't own it, because it's so damn expensive. I mean jesus, the original price was like 30 dollars, which I would be willing to spend, but people on amazon ( and no one sells it on ebay ) want near a hundred dollars
So I get it from the library ever so often
When I need it
it never occurred to me that it would become a collector's item ( I don't ever recall in my life wanting to own something that has become a collector's item and has gone up in price like a comic book or baseball card - the diary of a transwoman no one really talks about anymore?)
But it has so many gems to help you stumble along in life
The greatest of her quotes, the most potent and meaningful and famous ( of those who know her), is this one:
"You must always be yourself, no matter what the price. It is the highest form of morality"
This statement always makes me want to cry, but it also always centers me
Because she's right
When I have tried to go against myself to please other people, those other people have never remembered how they bullied me ( it was nothing to them! ), but i had to live with the soul-twisting consequences, and then I became intolerable to myself and to others
You become a burden to others when you do not gratify yourself
(In reasonable ways, of course; I don't think wanting to kill people counts)
You always think you are being selfish, that you have no right to be yourself, that it is too painful and inconvenient to others, when it is only momentarily painful, if even that, to those who seek to control you; it is nowhere near as painful as the destruction you do to yourself to please them
it doesn't even feel natural, it's a struggle to go against yourself, but sometimes the guilt and shame supposed loved ones and "friends" make you feel seems legitimate and powerful enough to make you bend
But you always lose, and you kill yourself. you sin, and now you must be punished
Not only do you betray yourself, but the universe betrays you now too
It is odd to think of going against yourself as a sin, as actually something that is as bad as hurting someone else, but it is
Because it is your contribution to the whole when you execute your exact DNA plan; otherwise, you are a cancer
The surrounding statements to this magnificent quote are also worth noting:
"you've got to keep your heart and mind open. you can disguise you emotions, you can even numb them, and finally you can paralyze them. And that is tragic. Our emotions are the only clues to our identity"
I had never even thought if it that way before, because I always feel my emotions are wrong, and everyone else knows what's best; when you have succumbed to that kind of brainwashing, you cannot possibly believe that anything organic that emanates out of you could actually have any legitimacy or relevance. It's why I don't trust myself, why many people don't trust themselves, and THIS evil people sniff out and use to their advantage
"The only meaning in life is passion. The passion to learn, to paint, to love, etc. don't dare destroy your passion for the sake of others. When you do, you've lost the beauty of life, and that's what a sin is. By robbing yourself of your very reason to exist, you have cheated. You must laugh when you must laugh, you must weep when you must weep, and you must love when you must love."
Candy did have a knack for "manifesting" ( that new age term or whatever for putting out your wishes into the universe and having them granted)
Candy didn't want to get old, and probably set herself a deadline for her life, sort of like Ian Curtis of Joy division supposedly did. Curtis supposed didn't want to live past thirty ( which he cursed David Bowie for reneging on), and Candy seemed to model herself after tragic blonde Hollywood actresses. Although she barely mentions Marilyn Monroe in her diaries, you could extrapolate that she modeled her short life on her, or as Mary Harmon put it, an amalgamation of glamorous Hollywood actresses, but not all of them had short, tragic lives
It's also a travel guide, better yet, A PORTAL BACK IN TIME, showing an inner glimpse of true artistic types living on the edge in the most romantic of places ( to me), Greenwich Village
( and about ) in New York City in the sixties and seventies
How they talked, what they might have cared about, what were they styles of clothes???
The excitement and adventure of struggling artists mingling with movie stars and eccentrics and rich people and all the myriad of combinations of these choices
(Source material for the movie "I Shot Andy Warhol")
Times will never be like that again, they'll only be like that once again, unfortunately only in my mind
Candy wrote many letters to people, and rough drafts of these letters
I used to write many letters myself when I was a girl
To myself, and to others
But mostly to foreigners. I was always seeking people to write to in foreign countries. I even maintained a somewhat bland correspondence with a Maori woman in New Zealand for two years; it is amazing we kept up with each other, having never once met before in our entire lives, and never going to meet
Technology has obliterated all of that. And while some people might still keep diaries, even ones written with pens or pencils, nobody really writes letters anymore
Candy Darling died in 1974 at the age of 29 of lymphoma definitely caused by the hormone treatments she was taking
Juesina Fevery is hitting the crystals HARD; crystal therapy, crystals and sacred stones, guides for life, anything helps really
We can be critical of women, like we can be critical of men, of black people, of gay people, or trans people, of Mongolians, of anyone
We can be critical of women, and it doesn't mean like, they should suddenly lose the right to vote or something
Because if this were the case, men should and would have lost that right AGES AGO
Feminism and "traditional living" (existing as a housewife, making babies, and letting hubby do all the talking) is a zero sum game according to right-wing political activist/commentator/provocateurs like Lauren Southern.
I have been watching the right wing as it has developed "internationally" (meaning Europe, the US, and Canada) FOR A WHILE NOW and starting with the far out anti-semitic videos of Evalion ( who no longer has a channel, but has a website where she now posts her writings) I have watched other women such as Brittany Pettibone ( who is now banned from England for her anti-immigrant stance but I did buy her fantasy novel at one point to see what the fuss was about) and Lauren Southern who I have never been impressed with
I admire anyone who pursues their ideals authentically, no matter what those ideals are, but I can still complain that she just regurgitates nonsense; this strange cognitive dissonance which seriously would blow my own mind if I participated in it, but am totally okay with though; I just don't like her persona
When she's mocking slut walks and ridiculing the phenomenon of "rape culture", I have to wonder where this woman lives, because even as an older woman, I STILL get harassed when I walk my city's streets, minding my own damned business, and I've met men who sincerely believe they have the right to view and partake of women any damned way they please
I wonder as I wan...as she makes videos complaining about all the men who die in wars, without considering that men start all those wars, and then enlist POOR men to fight them for the rich ones
One video of hers I particularly disliked where she portrays a young single woman who is denying herself the love of a man and is going crazy with incompetence because of the lack of a male presence to help her open pickle jars, the premise being that women without a man are miserable, this misery is self-imposed and glorified in the mainstream media, and that women who are independent can NEVER be happy: the two are mutually exclusive
I lived the existence of a lonely career woman, but it was not a self-imposed exile from the romance world; I desperately wanted to be coupled but economics and logistics just wouldn't let it happen; this conundrum is pretty typical and was nowhere addressed in her video
And if the situation she caricaturized only exists for a small percentage of women, an uptight class of wealthy neoliberal women who work at silly magazines, why do a video about it at all?
For all the criticism of the left that it doesn't allow nuance, neither does the right: alas, the nature of extremes
I'm going to state the glaring obvious when decrying the contradiction between how alt-right women can "struggle" to promote nationalism and putting women back in the kitchen and then be as outspoken as they are. They chalk it up to the situation in our world being so unbearable that they can't just stand by and not take a stand, but more than a few of their male counterparts resent their existence and insistence
But whatever. I actually really don't care. I met a woman once who told me she was a werewolf in search of a male counterpart to impregnate her, and when she asked me "didn't I think that was weird?", I responded I would have been disappointed if she did NOT consider herself a werewolf
I want DESPERATELY for people to follow their beliefs, no matter how ludicrous they might seem to me; I NEED something to fucking talk about! Her beliefs are not really what does it for me with her: I just don't care for how she talks and her whole vacuous, mean-spirited persona
natalie portman and jk rowling
I was indifferent to Natalie Portman ( I saw her in some films, ho hum) until I read she was an avid disciple of Alan Dershowitz and a big promoter of Israel
What little regard I had went downhill, because as much as the mainstream media and Israel promoters try to intimidate people from questioning its' existence and its' insistence on genociding the Palestinian people in hopes of obtaining their land ( and neighboring lands, hopefully with some water), Israel is a genocidal apartheid state, and this fact grows horrifically more evident each day, so much so, that even a diehard Israel supporter like Natalie Portman is a little embarrassed to partake in any festivities there; that's the only real significance behind her "boycott" ( as of this writing I have heard that my favorite band "P---- Riot" has cancelled their scheduled appearance in Israel)
And the leaders of Israel are so defensive, so sensitive to any criticism, that some have even called for her citizenship to be revoked; now that's the behavior of people who KNOW they are fucking up
Israel, like Ms Portman has stated here, has only existed for less than a century. In that time, it has appropriated more and more land and subjugated more and more people in its desire to expand. And it has done more than just appropriate land. It has appropriated food and culture, so to be okay with all of that (and the killing and the taking of land) and not bat an eye for decades but now suddenly want to hang back bodes ill indeed for the situation going on there
Is Israeli Shakshuka different from Lebanese Shakshuka? (I know their couscous is slightly bigger) Or Tunisian Shakshuka (where it actually originates?) I remember being told I was making an "Israeli salad" by a Jewish girl once when I had made something my non-Jewish self had grown up with: a Yugoslav salad, with cucumbers, tomatoes, and onions with olive oil and vinegar. There are only so many combinations in this world with simple ingredients and many countries can claim a dish like the salad I just described ( because a British fellow asked me if I was making a Spanish salad) but there are more specific dishes which I'm sure, it can be safely said have more specific origins. An article like this one above makes a person unfamiliar with Middle Eastern cuisine think this dish originates in Israel; when I looked up Mexican huevos rancheros, a cursory Internet glance explained that they originated from Mexico and not really anywhere else, so why say the shakshuka is Israeli when it doesn't originate from there? Arabs from neighboring countries get pretty burnt up when Israel touts dishes like falafel and hummus as intrinsically "Israeli"/ from "Parade" magazine
I got into the Harry Potter films like someone who is so bored at their secretarial job that the People magazines in the waiting room start to seem interesting.
I had awful housemates who were obsessed with the series, reading every book and eagerly awaiting every installment of the movies. I didn't really notice JK Rowling as a public figure to be noticed until I saw her being belittled by conservative critics for her stances on immigration and other issues
It was then that I knew she was one of those celebrity neoliberals who don't really care about anything but helping the powers-that-be maintain their status quo with their condescending rhetoric
Not participating in a boycott of Israel and declaring that it is destructive to the citizens of Israel is a cop out and it's like holding people ransom: you should continue to support a cruel apartheid state because some of its' citizens might suffer from your boycott. It's like when teachers are urged not to go on strike for better working conditions and wages because "the poor children are suffering"; why do you struggle with the notion of improving the lives of those teachers? it's bullshit.
It's not like the state of Israel gives Palestinians rights, much electricity, access to clean water and good food, education, or human rights, and it's not like bonafide Israeli citizens aren't tainted by the crimes committed in their name
I remember being a teenager during the Yugoslav war in the nineties and this woman being one of the biggest cheerleaders ( I mean, "reporter") for the bombing of Serbia. I was surprised they allowed the following entry from Wikipedia:
And this from an era when CNN was actually considered the pinnacle of top reporting. It's amazing, I never would have thought it would have fallen as much as it has these days, but the terrible truth is that it was always propaganda; the veil has only been officially lifted now
Like Keith Olbermann, she has returned to the mainstream and is flowing in its' waters once again
I love the stance on Syria: it's totally in keeping with the US's regime change narrative and demonization of a foreign sovereign nation's leader in order to topple him and destabilize the country, for whichever particular nefarious ends are de rigueur at the time. Currently, it's to help Israel out. But she was a similar cheerleader ( gosh sorry!) for the Bosnian war and the demonization of Milosevic.
Because in times of "Genocide", you just gotta tell the truth; it's like IMPERATIVE. Her "lack of neutrality" didn't serve to manipulate public opinion of one side towards the other AT ALL
After all that talk about CNN, I have to admit I don't watch cable news networks, because for one, I don't have cable. But even if I did, I wouldn't watch them, because when I do have access to cable, and happen to partake partially of the types of shows found on these barren wastelands, the pundits that appear talk so much gibberish and bullshit,I find it is really hard to decipher what they are trying to say
I instinctually have always felt that there was nothing to learn from these programs
And while there is TV and programming I view in general because I am curious about it's propaganda value, I find it next to impossible to derive even that value out of them
The Rachel Maddows, and whoever elses ( because I don't keep up with them, they are so useless and boring) have never left an impression
And when you realize that they are trying to say nothing and make it appear like something, it all makes sense
( oh my god, i can imagine some libtard bimbo complaining now "you just don't pay enough attention to them or you'll find something you like" like the time I complained that the "Internet was boring" and this dumb twenty-year old anarchist girl told me I hadn't given it a chance)
At any rate, Joy Reid is kind of like a Donna Brazile figure; a figure who is willing to be corrupt for the Democratic party and liberals but when it benefits her, she will try and throw her masters under the bus ( so watch out for that folks)
People will also forget about her in a few days and it will be like nothing happened ( no one talks about Donna Brazile now)
The woman obviously tried to cover this up with lies, is an opportunist, AND an ignoramus, but don't worry. Like Brian Williams and Hillary Clinton and Susan Lynch, and all-of-their-ilk, she will be forgiven for her sins and the legions of libtards will continue to allow her to provide them their thinking
And again, I don't really care: people should just be themselves
Also, I mean, for a journalist, i would assume you would try and learn, if you don't already know it, like some geography and history, MAYBE, I don't know, especially since you're so big on combatting "ignorance" Joy
It certainly IS dangerous, as you amply demonstrate below
fourth wave feminism
I know this is not an actual person BUT this trend kind of exemplifies the women I have mentioned beforehand
Now THIS is like the liberal feminist equivalent of the Alt-Right, but only in temporal terms ( meaning they are contemporaries) but in terms of actual equivalency, because the new feminism is like jellooooo
I had a lurking suspicion in my mind that this existed
But I really thought Third Wave Feminism still existed and was just getting fucked over
There really is a degenerate new wave of feminism that perfectly describes the politically correct hypocrisy of the current iteration
The Metoo movement, the feigned outrage about rape and sexual harassment (unless it happens to people like Juanita Broadrick) when Hollywood capitalizes on it, the feigned outrage at Donald Trump for his insults, the phony Russia gate conspiracy theories, the sanctimonious preaching about things they do themselves ( like polluting the environment)
A dancing, jumping, hysterical, phony, Oscars awards show, styrofoam-crusty corporate-driven piece of shit
Nora Canora is SO mad about how her parents named her, to rhyme with their last name - AAAAAAHH!
I think on some level, Alex Jones is sincere
I think he started off inspired by the existence of what he perceived as injustice, and he wanted to smite it from existence. He was a "true believer", and he thought the United States constitution meant something.
And while he is a sexist, and somewhat bigoted, who am I to judge?
We all have our faults, and we should all just be ourselves (with the ability to fight back)
I am jealous of him though, because I used to have a college radio show around the time he was really starting to become popular nationwide. I had a stupid leftist show, and I did everything myself: booked guests, conducted interviews, got up at four in the morning to print reams of articles from the school library's computers. I was going for a "spontaneous" experience ( i allowed people to call in and I didn't screen calls; I really couldn't, being the only one working the show, and I got called stupid a lot) and I didn't want to get bogged down in what I called "demonstration politics" and just regurgitating the popular leftist rhetoric of the time, but that's exactly what I ended up doing
It really sucks. I missed the era of Youtube by twenty years. I was twenty years TOO EARLY
But Alex persevered. He was considered "libertarian", a word with very little meaning to me, and he even made a guest appearance on the show of some local libertarians who used to monitor and persecute the other radio shows at my station with a perseverance usually present in only the most rabid of PC liberals; I believe the two of them were drunk when they had him on their show
if I had only persevered I could have been as big as Alex Jones today
fluoride *really is* bad for you and other people think so too
Anyway, you don't have to like Alex Jones, you don't have to like ANYTHING you don't want to, but it's another thing to just dismiss something because someone you don't like says it
And I guess that's why really paranoid ( or very "woke", depending on how you view things) people complain that he might be a "gatekeeper"; someone who seems like he questions the status quo, but is really there to control the narrative for people who question. He's loud and he's right wing, so when he says stuff like "fluoride is bad for you" or "fluoride is mind control", many people dismiss it out of hand ( especially those really smart scientific liberals; usually guys), and the subterfuge is maintained
Sorry folks. From people like Kaj Roholm, a Danish fluoride scientist from the 1930's who studied the effects of fluoride on human bodies and pretty much concluded that it was useless, to Hardy Limeback, a former head of dentistry at the University of Toronto who used to be one of the biggest promoters of fluoride in water, to all those European nations who don't bother to put it in their water because they see no benefit, this is not really a conspiracy theory. There are legitimate criticisms of fluoride's usefulness and hell, you can use fluoride all you want if you so choose, but why do people who don't want it have to drink it? And it is actually present in a lot of psychiatric medications, especially in ones where people's inhibitions become impaired ( you know, like prozac?)
So even if you don't agree that fluoride is problematic, it really isn't just an "Alex Jones thing"
atrazine really *does* feminize frogs
This is the biggest joke I see bandied about the Internets when ridiculing Alex Jones and "his theories"
Oh, Alex and his "gay frogs"
Too bad it's actually true
Tyrone Hayes ( a black scientist by the way, liberals should love that ) has done studies on atrazine, a pesticide widely used in the US ( but banned in Europe) showing that it is an endocrine disruptor and that is adversely affects amphibian populations
Syngenta, the Swiss chemical manufacturer that makes the garbage has conducted a smear campaign against him and other scientists who dare to question the safety of this chemical compound
I first heard about him in a documentary called "Last Call at the Oasis", which also featured Erin Brockovich, a woman I greatly admire for her work on hexavalent chromium in drinking water in California (although the movie was great, it was full of a lot of untruths)
Atrazine is pretty prevalent in our environment, and in agricultural use, so it would make perfect sense to muddy the waters a bit further when trying to discredit any of its critics
waco *was* really fucked up and there are actually leftists who think/thought so
This one I include here because it's not something he harps on about much recently, but it was one of his major topics starting out. He even helped construct a new church on the site of the old compound that was razed to the ground by the ATF
Close to eighty people died because of the ATF's assault on the compound, including several small children
A lot of people criticized and continue to criticize the role of the government and the ATF in this fiasco, that they tortured that inmates of the compound with loud music, late nights, and that they fired the first shots and caused the fire, but it did seem to be relegated to merely right wing critics of Bill Clinton
And it's indicative how the "Alex Jones effect" ( as I also like to call this phenomenon) doesn't just apply to him: it applies to anything that seems to emanate from the right side of the political spectrum.
Criticism of the Clintons ( or anyone in the Democratic party for that matter) also falls under this. For uncritical thinkers, if the wrong person is saying it, then it must be untrue. It's like if Rush Limbaugh said the sky is blue; well, that can't be true, because that evil f-- (not very body positive there) f--- said it
It's fricking hilarious!
i mean, JUST this week! Kanye West has been tweeting that he liked Candace Owens' (conservative black woman who became popular after just a few Youtube videos capitalizing on being a conservative Black woman ) ideas and that he kind of agrees with Trump, and shitty liberals literally shat their pants
And you know what, that's fine. That's your opinion. But my opinion is that you're being stupid
I don't like Candace Owens; I think she's awful. But some things I agree with her.
I just don't appreciate or understand the dismissive attitude of people. I follow people on Twitter who immediately "blocked" him ( as if he would follow them in the first place and you don't have to pay attention to his tweets if you don't look for them but whatever ) because they were so offended by what he said
Shania Twain was forced to apologize for saying she would have voted for Donald Trump if she had had the opportunity, and she felt compelled to give an apology that ran for four long tweets...
But I digress
Because the point of all this is that if people stopped being outraged when their "enemy side" does something and took a step back and saw that they really have no principles and also that we are all getting played, maybe something "good" (Whatever that means) could finally happen
Coriandra de Bambaway is getting a first class seat on the first flight to Mars. On Virgin Airways. I don't know how she did it
The Zeitgeist is what he is
What do you do?
How do you live when you are a political being?
When your very essence is current events and the striving for social justice?
What do you do when you're born a libra in the beginning of October???
(No, he was born in January but if you're born in the beginning of October, according to the Zodiac, you are CRAZY for social justice)
One of my favorite historical groups to obsess about was the Baader Meinhof Gang of the 1970's to (1998???)
I read the book, watched the movie, semi-idolized Ulrike Meinhof ( the straight journalist who threw in her lot with the wayward leftists)
The book by Stefan Aust is amazingly boring and purposely bereft of juice ( I kind of get the feeling he was purposely holding back) I was kind of surprised how staid it was, and chalked it up to it being the translation from German, but the movie that it is based on it is also surprisingly stale, only saved by the natural charisma of the actors
i would have been scared to be part of this cult, because they were kind of mean, and crazy, and they had no qualms about killing people; similar groups like Weather Underground (USA) and Direct Action (Canada) at least got a grip and tried to avoid killing people
But Europeans tend to be more serious, and the Baaders even threw in their hand in the hijacking of a Lufthansa airplane in 1977 in exchange for the release of their leadership being held in Stammheim prison for their catastrophic political activities
The first generation's leaders were all eventually suicided (except for one, who survived her four stab wounds) and three more iterations would emerge from the wreckage of the first, but where was Horst Mahler?
And what did he have to do with any of this?
These are the burning questions
In the movie he's portrayed as a bit of a hanger-on , and the butt of a joke for the woman-hating alpha male Baader, but while portrayed as meek, he was probably one of those I-am-meek-but-smart-and-I-know-when-to-get-out types
Or maybe he was more of the I-am-actually-really-sincere-but-everyone-makes-fun-of-me types, because the guy is obviously willing to go to jail for his beliefs, something many people aren't willing to do
And he's still alive (he's 82) while Andreas Baader didn't live past forty; plus Andreas was a bully, and bullies are all secretly cowards, as we all know
Horst Mahler riding the wave of trends, actually anticipating them before they even fully emerge, getting on board at the first crest; the virtue and superpower of a true political being
He has anticipated the alt-right before the alt right even knew what it was doing (VERY European, and Americans better keep up)
Because before Holocaust denial started gaining traction ( and still hasn't reached its' pinnacle of popularity, but it has a burgeoning following on the Internet) Horst was already going to jail for it
He had become right wing some time before, and I wonder if he didn't go through some disillusionment with the left but sans the 2016 US Presidential election
He is like the embodiment of that cliche, that leftist youth became conservative old fogies, and that is because pragmatism takes over and they give up: it never occurred to me that it's because they REFUSE to give up
Searching, seeking, pining for a new way to express themselves politically, because the old ways turned foul, seeking desperately for the spark
Becoming conservative is not the same as becoming apolitical, and it doesn't even mean not believing in ideals anymore, you just have slightly different ones now
Your ideals are probably the same, you are just pursuing them with a different lens
And maybe, also, it's because you became deeply disillusioned with the left, and you relaxed that they're not the default good guys
Maybe it's because you're really environmentalist in your own life, question deeply the right of humanity to befoul the splendor that is the Earth, but question the emphasis on "climate change" and get pounced on for it (how dare you! Climate change deniers should be killed! That's actually a thing as of this writing)
Maybe you even dared question evolution from a non-religious perspective and you got nailed to the wall ( I mean, Darwin was a racist AND a sexist and it's called "a theory" for a reason)
Maybe you didn't understand why 13 European countries have laws about questioning the Jewish Holocaust but there are no laws anywhere about questioning how many people died in the Armenian genocide of 1915 (or whether it even occurred), how many indigenous people existed in the Americas prior to the advent of white people, or how many women were burned at the stake during the incredible witch hunts of Medieval Europe? (And believe me, people really question those numbers)
And on top of that, you don't even freaking CARE if those other laws exist, because you know that they shouldn't, because you KNOW you can't legislate people's minds, and thought crime, WOW, that is some mega dangerous legal territory, (and that is a freaking understatement)
Maybe you don't like GMO's or vaccines but liberal corporate science goons try to bully you by telling you that "science is peer review and rigorous studies and YOUR GOD" and there's NO WAY up and coming, barely tested technologies could EVER be flawed, so you should be okay with them being foisted on you without your consent. Jill Stein was "suspect" because she said you should be able to question vaccines and Neil Degrasse Tyson is an astrophysicist, so you should unquestioningly take his word on GMO's
Maybe you questioned "science" because you believed that was the heart and soul of science, and the orthodox masses threw leftism in your face
And you were like, "Fuck: foiled again"
My point after all this is that Horst Mahler is an icon of political transmutation, and while he may not have had all these thoughts I have listed for you here, and I am doing a lot of conjecturing obviously, I think I can understand a bit what the struggle has been for him
Bizantia Nandu worships at the altar of orange juice made from recycled sewage water and orange-flavored metamucil
Holly Woodlawn, the last of the transgender "Warhol Superstars" died at the tail end of 2015 with little fanfare
I guess she got a bit in a memoriam in an episode of the Oscars (barf) but whatever - there was not much media coverage of her passing
( there was also not much media coverage of John Trudell's passing either, Native American activist, who died two days after her)
There is still Jane County hanging around, shilling for Israel, but I don't think she is counted amongst the Warhol superstars; she was her own punk phenomena, being one of the first people to introduce fashion-held-together-with-clothespins to the masses
Those were the days, that was the movie: living the artistic life in Greenwich village in the 60's, staying at the Chelsea, living on the periphery. No rules, no boundaries, within this microcosm of a restrictive world. Following your thoughts and creative pursuits wherever they may lead, everything was possible, and every day more exciting than the last; living it down and dirty in the moment. Individuals striving to be their authentic selves, in an authentic way, and it was sooo cool. I watched this movie so many times to house my cowering spirit animal, when it got cold and worn in the real world
At any rate, during these same past few years since Woodlawn's death, my perspective on the whole "solidarity with trans and homosexual people" has dramatically changed.
They were a huge part of my outside identity, people I thought I could relate to very well, people I thought definitely belonged in the population of my imaginary cities
But it's like the air was let out of the balloon, and the enthusiasm is gone
This is for several reasons
you're becoming normal
"Holly, do you think that the armed services discriminate against transsexuals?" Holly: "Thank God they do, or I'd be fighting in Vietnam"
The darkest days of trans and gay people have passed, in my opinion
And these were the best days of their lives
They are still discriminated against, and they are even still being killed (in the US, and certain Muslim and other countries), but their media presence has sky rocketed in the US, and their existence becomes more normalized by the day
And you know what? They mostly did it themselves, with the stonewall riots, and general changes in society not necessarily caused by the work of activist allies
Gay people got the federal right to marry in 2015. I voted for Barack Obama solely because he said he was for gay marriage.
I thought when gay people got the right to marry, I would be free as well, because a little more freedom allotted to someone else meant more freedom for me
I remember driving down Carnegie Avenue to work so many mornings seeing the billboard proclaiming his full support behind the issue. It was THE ONLY REASON I voted for him, because for all intents and purposes, he is and was a puppet of US corporate imperialism
The masses cheered as June of that year unfolded, and I remember congratulating gay coworkers on their victory and a new found freedom
Congratulating gay co-workers who made fun of feminism
where is the solidarity???
Intersectional feminism really is a product of women's thinking
Women, always thinking about others, putting others before themselves, MOTHERS
So they came up with intersectional feminism, to take into consideration other factors that may play a role in someone's oppression
And while this doesn't mean ALL feminists subscribe to this ( they don't; there are probably hundreds of variations of "feminist" out there), I've seen few instances of solidarity from other oppressed groups
I have never seen gays or trans people come up with "intersectional gay or trans rights movement", especially since some of the most high profile gay and trans people, like Blair White and Caitlyn Jenner (pictured above, in case you didn't know) are surprisingly right wing and could care less
When I bring this up, people tell me it's because they've had it so hard, but haven't women had it hard too?
The only well known gay personage in the US that I have seen demonstrate any support for women and their rights has been George Takei, but even that I take with a grain of salt given he has been known to make jokes based on female stereotypes
Some would say the phenomenon of the drag-queen is a mockery of women, many who don't even dress and do their makeup in such extreme ways
I had a gay friend who considered himself to be "feminist" but constantly mocked by questions about guys and my intelligence
What I realized I was witnessing was that once major-league oppressed groups start to become less oppressed, they start to appear more human, and they start to appear, and act, and emerge, to be just like everybody else, like they always were
They have no allegiances to "activism" or "social justice". I was surprised when I first heard of "gay republicans". Liberals are still incensed at the phenomenon of the "Black Conservative". How could they dooo such a thing? How could they possibly think like that? Alt-right women?
What does it all mean???
I assumed all oppressed peoples stuck together: they don't
I assumed all oppressed peoples were some thinking, unfeeling amorphous blob whose sole purpose in life was just begging to be saved
And don't they understand what we have all done for them? How we stood by them, as the rest of the world spat on them?
They owe us their allegiance!
"You're born naked and the rest is drag"
no longer fabulous, no longer owed my allegiance
Whether you call it "gender dysphoria", or you believe there are a thousand genders and sex is not based on your genitals, I did learn this one thing, and it was huge relief:
They're just people
When they were not as well accepted, they were different people; they were fabulous
Like Candy Darling, a Warhol Superstar who died when she was only 29, who decided not to undergo sex-reassignemnt surgery because in the paraphrased words of her best friend Jeremiah "she would have been less fabulous"
Now that the oppressed are becoming more acceptable, are they now, less fabulous?
There is something about being oppressed that really lends a special flavor to a life story, to a movement, to a group of people
It also blinds you to their faults. That people who are "oppressed" can be just as shitty as people with more privilege
And they can be just as nice
Like the working class poseur who eschews privilege to "slum it" with the working classes, a group of people he glorifies in his mind, and whose naive fantasy comes crashing down around him when he hears the racist and sexist shit some of them often spew
Yep, just people
At different stages of societal acceptance
In this video at around 5:40, Candy Darling can barely spit out her wish to be married some day. She and Jackie Curtis (sitting next to her) consider this so far-fetched that they chuckle at the thought. It's kind of sad really, because if you read her diary ( available at our local library, and one of my favorite books of all time ), she longed for those kinds of things, and lived in a lingering despair that she would never get them
It's interesting because today, you have the likes of Blair White, a transgender conservative youtube superstar who doesn't think twice about the prospect of getting married to her current boyfriend
But you have to wonder if Candy enjoyed the longing, the despair: was it a part of her persona? She often decried people getting old and idolized blonde movie stars who died young, like Marilyn Monroe, and then she herself lived out this fantasy, not achieving life past 30
Was it a part of the personae of all the people I admired in the Warhol clique, Valerie Solanas being the one I admired most ( and the least affiliated with his entourage)? Was it their doom-soaked lives that were so attractive to a terminally melancholy person like myself?
Or was it the isolation, the special place they had created for themselves, on the outskirts of the "Real World" that so appealed to me?
Yeah, that was probably it
And now that the mystique is gone, because you are all part of the mainstream now, and getting more and more integrated by the day, you no longer represent a special magical underground world, looking in from the outside
You are obviously free to pursue your life's goals at will, and you owe me no allegiance at all
And I, no longer owe you mine
Cara Piss - De Beauvoisin abandoned her five children and Catholic family to pursue...something